haha. omg i feel so weird now. like i was talking to someone just now (let's just call that person X ok) and usually i don't really care whether X replies or not to my messages on MSN but then today i was like actually expecting a reply. like wth right? usually it's like a formal chat. you know like' hey,how are you? how's school? good? ok...' and that's usually it but then today.. haha. i can feel the busybody in me growing. hahaha.
We took abhi to Lot 1 today. haha. it was so cute. we were in the LRT and he totally loved it. haha. omg,i love him so much. haha. Mamma got me this really nice perfume from the body shop. and for a change,she actually likes it. haha. but when we went to sasa and i let her smell the Rose by Paul Smith perfume,she hated it. haha. My mum can be so opinionated sometimes.. well,at least she's honest. haha. she liked the Flora by Gucci though. so at least she liked one of the perfume's i like. haha.
Anyway,i NEED to lose weight! alot of it! omg,i hate how i look now. shit,when i wore this maroon top today,i felt like a tomato. i swear! or like some huge discoloured pumpkin. ugh! i honestly need to deflate down to a size 6 like i was before. that day,when i went out with fabeha and ramo to get papa a cake,i felt so... UGH with myself. seriously. i was really disgusted. i kept looking at myself in the mirrors and i was like Shit! I'm gonna lose weight,even if it means losing my sanity. So help me God!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Lessons Learnt
Hee hee my first post in a new blog. i have like three other blogs going around in cyber space.. but whatever.. and i kinda wanted to write all this down in a proper notebook but i can't really find one that pleases me(HAHA) so...
School's been sucha bitch. It really is so painful when you have the stigma of being a retainee. i mean yeah,it's not a crime but it's not exactly something to be proud of. like when i see naqeah and ramo and marlee going to 09A1 to line up and everything i just wish i could be with them. the selfish bitch in me wants last year to rewind but the sensible girl in me is very happy that my closest friends got promoted to year 2 especially fathin. I remember being really scared for fathin and when i got my results last year,i was like so nervous i broke down and cried before i could even ask her what her status was. at that point in time,i was too snotty-noses and blurry-eyed to actually notice what was going around me but when i think about it now,one thing that really struck me was that ramo was crying too. first i thought that she had been retained or something and i was like wtf? how can ramo get retained? and then she told me she was crying for me,i swear at that point in time,my respect for her increased sevenfold.
I guess last year made me realise alot of things. First,obviously,is to study hard and to never slow down your pace. EVER. Secondly,i actually learned about friends. In jss,it was so cheena and it was really hard to make any decent friends.. for me,at least. the people there were really different from MI. Mi,i found was more accepting and less judgemental,at least to me. haha. Anyway,i'm not going to school tomorrow. I haven't been sleeping properly for at least a week because of tension and partly because of my Abhi Bebu. haha But i love him to bits so whatever he does is never gonna piss me off (touchwood!) I love my Abhi Bebu!
School's been sucha bitch. It really is so painful when you have the stigma of being a retainee. i mean yeah,it's not a crime but it's not exactly something to be proud of. like when i see naqeah and ramo and marlee going to 09A1 to line up and everything i just wish i could be with them. the selfish bitch in me wants last year to rewind but the sensible girl in me is very happy that my closest friends got promoted to year 2 especially fathin. I remember being really scared for fathin and when i got my results last year,i was like so nervous i broke down and cried before i could even ask her what her status was. at that point in time,i was too snotty-noses and blurry-eyed to actually notice what was going around me but when i think about it now,one thing that really struck me was that ramo was crying too. first i thought that she had been retained or something and i was like wtf? how can ramo get retained? and then she told me she was crying for me,i swear at that point in time,my respect for her increased sevenfold.
I guess last year made me realise alot of things. First,obviously,is to study hard and to never slow down your pace. EVER. Secondly,i actually learned about friends. In jss,it was so cheena and it was really hard to make any decent friends.. for me,at least. the people there were really different from MI. Mi,i found was more accepting and less judgemental,at least to me. haha. Anyway,i'm not going to school tomorrow. I haven't been sleeping properly for at least a week because of tension and partly because of my Abhi Bebu. haha But i love him to bits so whatever he does is never gonna piss me off (touchwood!) I love my Abhi Bebu!
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