Hee hee my first post in a new blog. i have like three other blogs going around in cyber space.. but whatever.. and i kinda wanted to write all this down in a proper notebook but i can't really find one that pleases me(HAHA) so...
School's been sucha bitch. It really is so painful when you have the stigma of being a retainee. i mean yeah,it's not a crime but it's not exactly something to be proud of. like when i see naqeah and ramo and marlee going to 09A1 to line up and everything i just wish i could be with them. the selfish bitch in me wants last year to rewind but the sensible girl in me is very happy that my closest friends got promoted to year 2 especially fathin. I remember being really scared for fathin and when i got my results last year,i was like so nervous i broke down and cried before i could even ask her what her status was. at that point in time,i was too snotty-noses and blurry-eyed to actually notice what was going around me but when i think about it now,one thing that really struck me was that ramo was crying too. first i thought that she had been retained or something and i was like wtf? how can ramo get retained? and then she told me she was crying for me,i swear at that point in time,my respect for her increased sevenfold.
I guess last year made me realise alot of things. First,obviously,is to study hard and to never slow down your pace. EVER. Secondly,i actually learned about friends. In jss,it was so cheena and it was really hard to make any decent friends.. for me,at least. the people there were really different from MI. Mi,i found was more accepting and less judgemental,at least to me. haha. Anyway,i'm not going to school tomorrow. I haven't been sleeping properly for at least a week because of tension and partly because of my Abhi Bebu. haha But i love him to bits so whatever he does is never gonna piss me off (touchwood!) I love my Abhi Bebu!
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